"time heals all wounds"

Sometimes, I feel so out of control of my life and what happens in it that I have to believe there is some reason for it. I have to believe that everything happens for a reason-even if I can't see that reason at the time. I don't mean to say that everything that happens in my life is out of my control, but sometimes it feels as though there is this path in which we each are meant to travel, without any map or guidance. 
When my parents got divorced, it felt like my world was falling apart. In my parents' defense, I was in high school when this happened and almost everything bad that happened felt like my world was falling apart. 
As I matured, the more I saw how much better my parents were apart than together. In defense of my teenager self, I had never known how much better my parents would be apart rather than together. Looking back, I know that my relationship with either of them wouldn't be as strong as it is today if they hadn't divorced. Today, I am thankful for their divorce, but looking back on that awful year, I remember thinking it couldn't ever get worse.
This semester I went through a life-altering situation that will forever change who I am. I am not a teenager in high school anymore with no life experience, I am graduating from college and turning 23 in a few weeks. For the first time since my parents divorce, I truly felt depressed and sad. This was worse than my family's break up, something inside me had died. 
I stopped eating, I barely slept, I quit showing up for school and work. Everything inside me hurt. The feelings I had were emotional, but they were so strong that I could physically feel them. 
Eventually, I realized this was no way to continue living, I had to get myself some help. 
Since I reached out for help, I will not lie, life hasn't been easier. Sometimes, I just want a quick fix for something, I want to be able to snap my fingers and make everything go away. I just want to feel better. But, that isn't how life works. I need to hurt this bad in order to feel better. And its nothing that can be  "fixed" or a quick fix, only time will allow me to move forward with my life. Just like time showed me the good in my parents' divorce, I am sure time will show me the reason or if anything the lesson in my struggles this year.